Going home...

I couldn't imagine college being this hard.. I've been studying my ass off but it's sometimes impossible to win against tough teachers. I just wanna finish up this quarter and move on. I'm tired of the cold and the same old. A vacation would be nice, unfortunately I never got around to planning a spring break this year. I really don't think any spring break in my life will top senior year of high school in Panama City. Those were great times with all my old friends and everyone could agree. I don't think I've ever drank that much alcohol and smoked that many cigs in a week before or if I will ever do that again. It still suprises me everyday that I was able to quit smoking cigarettes. I thought I was gonna be hooked for a long time but I managed to man up.. Definitely for the best. After a stressful time at OU so far this quarter I am ready to visit home. I miss that place sometimes :( home is home..And of course always thinking about Lindsey.. I wish I knew what I wanted in life by now. Maybe i'll leave some better entries sooner or later I've been busy as hell and a little toasted =]

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Winter seems cold when I let it get to me, but I can't imagine how cold it could be in some places around the world. Sleep has been hard for the last few days but it's just the anxiety of trying to outperform myself in a way I wish I was. Studying has never come easy to me, so it seems like it's all I do yet I still fall behind. With all that I am blessed with, it's the least I can do to be thankful. Just like quitting smoking cigarettes after 2 years has been good for me. Some people would kill to have the health I have.. The feeling of being lucky for no reason scares me. When could fate take it's turn? blah..
Today was stressful.. Took a tough Calculus test at 9 this morning that I'm pretty sure kicked my butt. Over-studying the wrong materials and mastering all the concepts in the chapter fried my brain for sure. I need to learn not to re-invent the wheel =P.. After, followed 2 of my other classes Sociology and Principles of Macroeconomics. Sociology fascinates me but I can't find the time to teach myself the material.
My girlfriend and I fought a little bit this morning. I don't understand why her mood fluctuates like crazy cause one day she'll love me and the other hate me. Maybe she's just a woman. Having a girlfriend your freshman year of college is very stressful with how our society is today. With no simplicity and the rise of social networks, it almost becomes a job to watch out for them. She's very beautiful though and I'm lucky to have her. It's the weird and spontaneous things about someone I find to like the most.



Goodnight